Thy Will Be Done

I'm almost done with my birth control pills.  I've set an alarm on my phone to go off at 7:30AM every day, and I've been able to remember to take them with that. Thank goodness.  Cause I can't remember to take my prenatal every day?  Doesn't make sense. Other than the fact that my prenatal makes me sick, so I have to take it with a lot of food.  So at the end of the birth control pills, you have to skip the row of white pills, when you would normally be starting your period, and you go right into the next pack for one week.  I remember when I was first married, I tried this, so I wouldn't have my period at a certain time.  It messed up my cycle bad, and didn't really work.  Aunt Flo still came.  So I'm wondering if the same will happen this time around.

After I'm done with the pills, I go in for an ultrasound and more blood tests.  I start the injections and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous about them.  I've read a ton of blogs and articles and they bring bloating, soreness, mood swing, and more.  I guess Rodney should be the nervous one. :)  He's going to be the one to give me these shots.

We've worked it out so that our out of pocket expense for the meds won't be the $4242.98 that was originally told to me.  Thank the dear Lord.  We applied for a Compassionate Care program that is going to be giving us 50% off.   Where there's a will, there's a way.

A few times in the last year or two a thought goes through my mind.  "Thy Will Be Done"

I'm not super religious.  I don't pray every night, and I don't go to church.  But this phrase keeps going through my mind.  I can exercise, not drink caffeine, take my prenatal vitamins, eat healthy, yada yada yada and so on.  But ultimately, Thy Will Be Done.  Its not all in my hands, or even the dr's hands.  Its His Will that is to be.  His Will is what is going to happen.  And as much as that makes me crazy because I want to be in complete control of this outcome, there's no way thats possible.  There's nothing I can do to change His Will.  When I do find myself praying,  I always remember to repeat that as if I'm reminding myself that there's no reason to stress and worry.

Thy Will Be Done.